Thea

So I’m in this really strange place in my head (which ain’t saying much).

I’m down a 1/2 pound this week…but I totally don’t feel like I deserve to be.  I have been eating like crap, CRAP for a while now, but I keep on staying within my weight range.  It’s like I’ve given my body license to continue to eat like CRAP even though I’m within my range.

Not exactly the most healthy attitude in the world to have.

I should be eating like AWESOME and maintaining.  That should be my goal. I shouldn’t be trying to see how much I can get away with.

Anyhoo, I’ve updated my goals for this challenge.  They were pretty much the same as the last challenge, I just changed up my running goal a bit.  Instead of running so many miles on specific days, I just need to meet my weekly mileage goal.  I’ll be increasing the goal by 10% every week.

If I can keep up with that, I should have no problems with my 8k and 10k in a few months!

I stand before you humbled, dear body of mine.

I can’t figure you out.

I thought sure after the eating and the lack of exercising that you would hate me.

I was convinced that I was so bloated that you could roll me down the driveway.

I “knew” that this morning you would let me know exactly how stupid I’ve been lately.

But alas, you fool me once again.

This morning, I weighed in at 156.  Still within my range.  Unbelievable!

But thank you, body.  Thank you.  I will never again question your mysterious ways.  From now on, I’m just going to roll with the punches and let you do your thing!

I feel pretty good about myself, thankyouverymuch.

Despite spending last week in Disney World (and subsequent confessions), I weigh LESS than I did two weeks ago. I seriously couldn’t ask for much more than that.

Besides doing my best to stay on top of my goals (although I had a few slip ups last week), exercise is definitely becoming a more routine part of my life. On top of the running, I’m throwing in some yoga every once in a while and I’ve also started doing the Hundred Push Ups program again.

Is it wrong to see something as a necessary evil yet kinda enjoy it all at the same time?

Another thing that has helped? I’m getting more sleep. Thanks to my husband (I should probably write a post on that), I am in bed before midnight every night now. That makes such a huge difference in how I feel every day.

Anywho, this weeks weigh in puts me at 4 weeks on my maintenance ticker (see it over there on the right? I thought a butterfly was fitting).

One month down. Eleven to go.

Bring it.

After getting a solid 7 hours of sleep last night (a rarity these days), I stepped on the scale and hesitantly looked down.

You see, I’ve had a less than stellar week.  I slipped up on two of my challenge goals and does anyone else think that Christmas candy rivals Halloween candy in terms of sheer volume?

I may have indulged in a Hershey Kiss.  Or 50.  Some may have been slathered in peanut butter.  I’ll never tell.

I was pleasantly surprised to see that while I gained, I am still in my healthy range….so it’s all good.

I have a bit of a challenge on the horizon.  My family leaves on Sunday afternoon for vacation.  We will be spending a week at Walt Disney World and I’m a little nervous.  I hope I don’t let myself go too much.  The resort has a 1.5 mile running path so I’m bringing all of my running stuff.  I just need to actually…you know…RUN!

When I stepped on the scale this morning, the clouds parted and the skies were filled with sunshine and singing birds with ribbons in their beaks and I SWEAR I heard music.

Their may have even been an animated princess cheering for me.

Somehow, I lost 3 pounds over the last two weeks. I’m at 153! I haven’t been at 153 since 2007!

I don’t know how, but I’m not asking.  Road trips, Christmas dinners, non-Christmas dinners with my MIL’s home cooking, eating out, eating a full meal in the CAR because we didn’t want to stop.

Sticking with my Rethink Your Shrink goals really helped!!

I may officially be on maintenance, but I’m not looking a gift weight loss in the mouth.

WOOHOO!!!

Here are my answers to the Thursday Three questions.  No turning back now!

Rethink Your Shrink Goals

Goal 1: Maintain Weight Between 153 – 157 pounds

Goal 2: Run 3 days a week, at least 3 miles each time

Goal 3: No food after 9pm

Tracking: I’ve made a sticker chart and an online chart!

Reward: A new yoga mat

You know it’s been a long day when you SWEAR you hit publish only to realize that you never even started the post.

Anywho.

I was very pleasantly surprised when I stepped on the scale this morning. Dave has been gone since Monday and I am not known for my “good choices” when he is gone.

I am down 1.4 pounds this week!  1.4 pounds!!  That’s freakin’ awesome!!

We only have one week to go and I have 1.8 pounds to lose.  Honestly, that’s a lot for me at this stage in the game.  I was SHOCKED to have a 1.4 pound loss this week at all.

I’m not sure I’ll hit that mark, but I’ll lose some weight trying.

Well, I had high hopes for this week.

I wanted to maintain.  My goals are nothing if not lofty.

And I did!  I controlled myself over Thanksgiving and tried to get a little exercise in every day (including a 5k on Turkey Day).  That yielded more than a maintainance weight.

I LOST!

.5 lb gone this week, yo.

Can’t complain about a loss the week after Thanksgiving, right?

Right.

Evidently, I missed Week 3…which just goes to show you that my mental state has not been at it’s best lately.

After 2 weeks of feeling like crap, I’m finally going to the doctor today.  I figured after I couldn’t open my mouth or chew food at dinner, that probably things weren’t right in my head, LOL!

That being said, I’m 1.5 pounds…but that’s over 2 weeks.  Between feeling like crap, feeling sorry for myself and subsequently not eating well and not exercising…I’ll take it. Not to mention biology is being a bitch this week.

I haven’t even been keeping track of my miles.  I have no idea where I am with that and I’m not sure I have the desire to go back and try to figure it out.

There is a fine line between taking care of yourself and babying yourself.  I hate that.  I am ready to start feeling normal again.  Here’s hoping antibiotics do their job.  Gotta get this course done (even though they haven’t even been prescribed yet) before I start yet another course in mid-December.

Sigh.

Very short post. Sickness has entered my house and I need a nap.

I’m down 1.8 pounds this week. That puts me at 155.

It’s amazing what exercising and counting your points will do.

Yay!

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